I really love being at Alabaster. I've gotten to go so many times this Christmas break and it makes me happy.

I can't wait until I'm out of high school and I don't have to deal with all of the people that bother me a ridiculous amount.

had a really fun day with Maddie and Kathy, and a really fun night with Spencer and my sister Nicole

out to dinner at Santino's with Spencer <3

My room smells like fucking cigarette smoke now.

playing piano, I guess.

On my mind:

- I want it to snow. Really, really badly.
- I miss my boyfriend.  I never get to see him. Even when he's home.
- Tea
- I hate that strange feeling when your feet are both cold, and warm at the same time. It feels like they could explode
- I'm always tempted to just chop off all of my hair.
- I want to move to Seattle
- The smell of pine trees makes me smile
- I want a kitten and a puppy. NOW.
- Hi Kathleen!
- College is right around the corner, but I want to go now.
- I'm tired.
- Cooooookies.
- I want to buy all of the dresses in the world.
- Did I mention I'd like to live in Seattle?

The Adventures of TJ Maxx

As many people know by now, I am a sullen TJ Maxx employee. But the thing is- I actually kind of love my job.  Despite the fact that half of the people I work with are either mentally unstable, ghetto, or just straight-up scary, I kind of have fun while I'm working. Why? Because it's very much like being in a terrible, horrible, awful sitcom that plays on ABC Family on week mornings.
First, there's Lisa. "Crazy Lisa" as she's known in the building.  (*there are 3 Lisas that work at TJ Maxx, so in order to differentiate between the 3, this Lisa is referred to as the crazy one...and for good reason.) Crazy Lisa has had many things happen to her in her private life. I've heard that her husband killed himself but she tells everyone that he died of a heartattack.  So, long story short, she's nuts now.  She loves to sing about her left brain very loudly while cleaning up the fitting room, and draws creepy doodles and poems on scraps of paper. This was my face when I saw them for the first time:

They were something like "owl- claws to grip-HATRED", or "Octopussy- magic ink to SPRAY ALL OVER EVERYONE".  To be honest, I really couldn't read what she wrote. Her handwriting's terrible, but I KNOW it said something like that.  Usually, she slashes her doodles away before anyone can see them.  But she forgot that one particular day.  And I was the one who had to suffer through reading them.  I feel bad for crazy Lisa. I really do.  But she really fucking scares me with her huge butcher knife that she uses to cut her apples in the break room.  Not going to lie.

Now, for the ghetto part.  The majority of the rest of them are so ghetto, that they're pretty hilarious.  True story:

"Dis gurl @ da cell black da utter naight called meh sasquatch, an eye wuz lyke GURL WHO U CALLIN SASQUATCH|??? IMA FUCK. YOU. UP. TRY MEH!"

and all I could do, was laugh under my breath and say "wow! That's so cool!" *insert nervous laughter here*.

And the rest are my friends.

DUNKIN DONUTS MINT HOT COCOA GET IN MY BELLLLLLLY

In a bad mood, and at work. Shoved my face with rice krispie treats. Bad combo.

Painting my nails, painting a picture, taking pictures, drinking too many hot beverages, and strumming my ukulele today <3. Then my soul will be crushed by work

Don't you ever just want to be that person that swears constantly, sometimes? Fuck shit god-damn it ass. See? Feels good.

This kid, Nick Insinga, who I used to go to school with is asking me to hang out. Awkward scenario...

going to work for 4 hours tonight.  Hanging out with spencer for now. Listening to vinyl records and having fun in his basement.  This is the life.

things I want right now:
- food
- cuddles
- hot chocolate
- to paint something
- snow
- to ice skate
- to take all of the photos in the entire wooorld
- a watch

when I'm upset, I go to this pond near my house and there's a barn full of cows across the street. I've formed a strange friendship with them. They comfort me.

Blog, meet Mari. Mari, meet blog.